Sunday Will Come

President Henry B. Eyring is a counselor in the First Presidency of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.  He recommended keeping a daily record of the little miracles that occur in our lives.  "Tonight, and tomorrow night," he suggested, "you might pray and ponder, asking the questions:

Did I see His hand in my life...? I will do that. And then I will find a way to preserve that memory for the day that I, and those that I love, will need to remember how much God loves us and how much we need Him."

August 9 ,  2010:
Tanya's birthday - almost two years had passed since her death, approximately 18 months since my mother died, six months  since my second husband TC died.  My heart was literally broken as I went through the motions of my life:  working as a social worker at Hospice (great job and wonderful colleagues who are also friends!);  serving in the church as a teacher (so many wonderful members who are also friends); my own sisters and friends to talk to on the phone (when I answered it!) but I was not doing well.  Add to this my continued difficulty managing money magnified by the death of TC which increased my expenses dramatically and I was emotionally hiding from life.  So I went to talk to my bishop - who else, really, would be willing to listen to me and still treat me with love and respect.  Boosted by his words to me along with support from my home teachers I thought I would set a goal regarding my financial issues.  I didn't know what I planned to do but I knew that I needed a minimum of $500 a month to be able to meet my financial obligations.

That's when I began to recognize messages from God - just for me.

•  A colleague asked if I would co-teach at the KY NASW conference.  Sure - why not?

September 2010-May 2011:

• Same colleague found out that the University of KY College of Social Work needed adjunct instructors starting in January 2011.  I was hired.
• A group home where I had worked off  and on over the years needed someone to audit charts prior to the state audit.  I was asked and I accepted!
• Hospice sent me to a train the trainer class so that I became qualified to teach a continuing education class that all social work supervisors need every three years.
• I was then hired to teach four of these classes.

May 2011:

• Bilateral knee replacement surgery meant no extra work for a couple of months.  I will still short each month.    
• Surprised to discover that my short term disability (which I had been paying for eight years and never used) would begin sending checks after a few weeks IN ADDITION to my regular paycheck?  Really?  Some catch?  No!

It continues to fascinate me that as I recognized these messages from God for what they were I found my broken heart beginning to heal although I know that the holes left there by those who have died will never be completely filled.   I again began to feel the peace that I had struggled to find during the illness and following the death of my first husband Roger.

Tomorrow is Easter Sunday.   I want to share a link to a talk I first heard in October 2006.  It has never left my mind and often when I am feeling those emotions that take me in a direction that isn't healthy for me, I say these words out loud - SUNDAY WILL COME.